A lot has happened over the past month. This past year I got married, bought my first house, and supported my husband with a job change that requires him to travel frequently. Most people would automatically assume that that was the kind of "a lot" that I was referring too, however, it's not. The "a lot" that I'm talking about is more internal. With the support of my husband by my side, I have made a lot of decisions about my future, my relationships, and my life in general. I've done a lot of soul searching- if you will- and discovered a lot about who I am deep down and exactly what I want out of this life.
Right about now you are probably wondering how all of this relates to my blog. If you've checked back in at all over the last month or so, you will have noticed that I haven't put up any new posts. I would love to say that it was because I was just wayyy to busy to blog (I actually was very busy over the holidays), but that was not it. The fact is, I didn't know exactly what I should blog about. There were just some days that I would be so consumed with all of the thoughts in my head, that I was certain I couldn't properly mask what I was feeling, so I thought a post was better left untyped. In the middle of all this, I entertained the idea of making my blog solely about all of the neat ideas or things I found to decorate my house with, dress myself in, or throw a party with, but that didn't feel right either. Don't get me wrong, I would love to someday have another blog that is aesthetically beautiful, has sponsors and giveaways and resembles many of the blogs I now follow, but that's not what I started this blog for. I started this blog to tell about my life and the ups and downs that go with it......but wait.......I didn't reallly want to tell about the downs. It's no secret that I am a very open and honest person. If you googled what "wearing your heart on your sleeve" meant, you'd see a big picture of muah! However, I felt like everyone elses blogs were so picture perfect, that I didn't want to be the one with the imperfect blog that gave people something to gossip about. The more I thought about it though, having a cookie cutter blog ALL the time was just highly unrealistic. I mean you can only blog so much about rainbows and butterflies. So I then decided that I would just be totally real and if I was in a rainbow kind of mood, I would write about that, but if I was in a rainstorm kind of mood, I would write about that and not hold back. The only problem is, that's a lot easier said than done. And here is where my question comes in...How much is too much?? Is it too much to talk about the relationship issues going on with a family member? Is it too much to discuss a yucky bladder infection? Is sharing details about exactly when Adam & I want to start a family too much? I'm not sure! I want my blog to feel personal and give my readers (although I only have 3 followers right now) something to relate to, but the fact is...this is a public forum that is open to all. There are a lot of risks involved with sharing your life, your real life. And these are risks that could not only affect me, but also the people that I love. Maybe they're not comfortable with me sharing all the details. Is it still fair to dish so other people can relate? I'm not sure and I definitely don't have all the answers, but for now, I will try hard to find the balance. After all, isn't that what success is all about...balance??
